Missing you!!

Sem one is coming to an end and i end up committed myself by ending this sem with choir group and caroling..Is all of this worth???I really spend all of my time for mostly choir and caroling...Honestly speaking there are two sides in my response towards what i did..I love it and i hate it in the same time..

I love it because i really earn $$$ and learn many new things which can improve myself for better future in management and how to sing in correct way..However, there's a big BUT at the end..

But why must i choose this year to learn and do all this things??Why can't i do it next time???I realize that i had forsaking my love ones included my parents and my special and dearly Teen Wei..My parents always call me up and ask how am i and i'm sure they're going to miss me so much..They really hope to see me to be with them all the time coz they really do care for me..

Teenwei whom i loved so much just finished her SPM and she had plenty of time..She has always want to go Sunway Lagoon with me and spend more time with me, but i end up disappointing her..She's in KL now, but i just got 5 hours on previous Wednesday to meet with her..I feel so in love when i talk to her, look into her eyes and touch her soft hand..She had gone thru hard time dealing with her SPM and after the tiring fight why i can't spend time to comfort and make her happy???..At the end, i realize that i really feeling so suckkk..

This is life..Earn from something and lose the other...I know it and i feel it deep inside my heart..I regret on one side but not the other..This mix up feeling did make me tense up and tired all the time..In the same time, after so much commitment, did anyone understand me?? NOPE!!!No encouragement and people even won't care for what had you done..

THIS IS THE WORLD!!World of Ignorant and Pride..Everyone wanna be the best and they forsake the values in their life..They lost Gratitue and they won't appreciate...However there's also a group of people did talk to me and we share laughter, and gone thru hard moments together..Solving problems and in the same time enjoying the same interest and have fun..

Anyway, after everything that i done, i told myself, this thing won't happen again...Frankly, i'll still be committed in what i done because i enjoy what i do..But I really feel tired and wanna go HOME to be with my love ones..I really miss my parents and especially my

DEAR TEENWEI..

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